alchemist

assalamualaikum, cikgu athirah...

2010-04-22T05:50:00.000-07:00

ada sapa2 yang berminat untuk menghantar anak ke kelas saya? sila hubungi ya...

crocs shoes!

2010-03-27T18:38:00.001-07:00

haha...nak dijadikan cerita, semalam, pas makan2 kitorang sefamily gi kedai crocs kat taman seri aman..mum bought me a crocs shoe. bubble gum's colour..love em..

thanks ibu..

like this song damn much!

2010-03-11T05:42:00.000-08:00

fireflies-owl city

setel semua..

2010-03-11T05:33:00.000-08:00

alhamdulillah..hari ini leh tarik nafas lega..
alhamdulillah sangat2...

progress report sudah berjaya dihantar pada pagi tai yang tak berape awallah.. kemudian, mengemudi kaki ke library tepat pukul doblas untuk wat aeseimen falsafah lak. alhamdulillah dapat siapkan pukil 3.30...kul 5.30 submit mase kelas..rupe2 nye, ramai lagi yang xhantar..kitorang je buat...sayo kangkung betollah budak2 ni... huh..

part yang paling best...malam ni leh TIDO dengan aman!! haha...esok nak bangun awal hantar member gi epot..nak gi manentah budak tu..mengarut je lebey...

masa untuk menjadi ulat buku...~

2010-03-10T05:40:00.000-08:00

haha...this was snapped by..ntah sape..tapi tu spek qila..haha

progress report vS nafsu ber'fesbuk'

2010-03-09T08:50:00.000-08:00

harini merupakan hari yang agak janggal.alhamdulillah, saya dah get on track semula setelah diberi catalyst pemangkin diri dari org2 disekeliling yang saya sangat sayangi dan hargai.

pukul 12 tepat tenghari tadi supervisor telah menelepon lab dan we had some sort of conv. due to the fundamental science conference by the end of june this year. the abstract for this conference shall be submit by the end of this march. oh! this is worst..i'm totally unprepared because there's not much progress that i've been done for this project.

so, need to burn the midnight oil lah! hahah...saya sedang berlaku tidak jujur terhadap diri sendiri..haha..sambil menulis progress report sambil mngkomen2 fesbuk...huh..kenapelah ade yang mencipta fesbuk nih...kan dah banyak tergendalakan kerja2 ku...blog pun same ajelah...

haha, ni dah already 1.15 a.m...still not weaken by the lullabies song in the head yang memanggil2 katil untuk bersama mengulit mimpi2 atau nightmare malam ni..haha..kene stay back til 3 a.m. or at least sampai yakin dah ok progress reportnya..

tomorrow...7.45 a.m. go to the lab..

maafkan dirinya dan diriku...

2010-03-08T09:15:00.000-08:00

dah masuk haribulan lain dah..inilah hari terakhir gaduh. sorry for all the bad things that i told you..saya mintak maaf sebab xfaham awak..saya mementingkan diri sendiri..=(

oh, i'm sorry...

terima kasih

2010-03-08T00:56:00.000-08:00

thanks, raihan...

maulidurrasul

2010-02-26T22:37:00.000-08:00

selamat menyambut maulidurrasul~

no soul..

2009-10-25T21:36:00.000-07:00

dah tensyen...

sintesiss xjadi...
blurr....

nak pack barang..go home..

~ehe...

2009-10-15T21:59:00.000-07:00

ahahaha..yesterday, someone had misreload me for rm30.00..gile kan..hahaha..tapi best..haha

aku rase bodoh berdouble2!

2009-10-13T20:46:00.000-07:00

ya allah, how i wish not to further study....

life is so hard and i think i am not able to cope with it..ya allah, the tears is running as if my life has ruin. ya allah.. give me the strength to keep still in this path.

sakitnye jiwa aku ni...i'm totally lost with everything that happen for this exactly two months. i really want to give up right now. i just think that i had made a wrong decision to continue study. am i making harsh decision? ya allah..

~totally happy=heavenly soul~

2009-10-12T00:28:00.000-07:00

i am totally happy today because:

i've got my first salary
i've put an end for all those sort of emotional problems.
i've gave out my hand-made cocktail puddings for all my lab-mate.
i just love all the people around me!

hehe.. but after all, i am hoping for a better tomorrow and the day after tomorrow and consequences days..

and today, i am synthesizing 2,3,4-trihydroxyacetophenone with 4-hydroxybenzaldehyde by using borontrifluoride etherate as the catalyst. i am hoping to get a good result from this method and lesser unwanted side-product. and my supervisor had taught me the better way to recrystallize the chalcone compared with my own procedure. it's ok..i'm still learning..yeahh, i'm still learning.

...dari novel genetics pearl...

2009-10-11T05:15:00.000-07:00

a was touched with these few baits...

"life has to go on. the day came. the days went. every second without fail. man became the hunter of time. they chased time that would never come back. they yearned for the time that had gone by. some even become the slaves of time. and they awaited in anticipation for the days that would come. after all, man was never satisfied for what he has...."

esok keleja lah...

2009-10-10T18:37:00.000-07:00

huhu..

bekerja..belajar..bekerja..belajar...

working got much more pressure and distress compared with study (degree level). huhu...

esok dah start kerja. a loads of work have to get done. malasnyer!! what is the best purification techniques for chalcone?????

i'm not the type of giving-up person, but since the last two months worked as the research assistant, i felt a lot of pressure. besides having problems with the synthesizing method, i also didn't have a lots of friend to share the feeling of being lonely! often, i tried to make myself happy by hanging up with some sort of friends and old-hostel-mate or ex-classmate, but still my level of happy emotions were still under warning degree. huhu...my soul is not really happy.

i am very much sure, if my emotions is going up to stabilized, i won't have the eagerness to go home every singles weekend = run away from the work-environment. i really need to undergo psychological treatment so that i can lead a merely happy life even though tons of work were bulging me.

open house+accident!

2009-10-09T18:34:00.000-07:00

Yesterday was an absolutely buziestttt day (19th syawal). my family held an open house day for the Hospital Pontian's and Kulai's staffs. variety of foods were served such as laksa johor, keli masak pecal, ayam masak merah, sayur pisang and the dessert was must-and-only-be puding koktail (nyummy2..). hehe..aku dah pancit sangat2 semalam...penat gile!

but..

early that morning, my little brother had an accident. that 13 years old boy was motorcycling (better call it as racing ) and unfortunately he fall into a hole and hurt his head and back. served him right because he did not help my parents to manage the household chores. 14 stitches on the hard headed boy! forgot to take his picture so that i can put the quarter-bald-head-boy pic here. biar die tahu malu..hahaha..

ok la..today, we are going to Kluang for a walimatul urus ceremony.. uncle Rahimin's daughter.

a slow change...

2009-10-08T07:46:00.000-07:00

the youngest of this hashim's family had slowly changed to be a better person,a better son, a better brother..alhamdulillah...

i need someone to understand me...

2009-10-06T22:51:00.000-07:00

today, nothing to stress out.. my synthesis for the past two months were not deliberately too good. after run for NMR, there're a lot of unwanted side products. so, i need to do some sort of purification work up that is crystallization.

huhu..life's sometimes felt terrible especially when there are many obstacles that we have to go through. often, i am not happy with what i did today.. i felt lonely because this new environment is quite different with the previous university. i did not have a lot of friends to laugh and cry like used to. this is soooooo bad for me. i need someone to share my problems with.. what should i do to be someone that is so friendly to others? here, i did not talk much, being like a stupid-shy girl..this is soo soo not me!!

what should i do...

the youngest in the family...

2009-10-05T21:43:00.000-07:00

i had the strange feeling..why my youngest brother hate me sooo much..he was the loveliest boy once at the age 6 years where we shared stories about syurga and neraka..nabi2....

now, he's already a grown up boy at the age 13. the problems is, whenever he is with me, the only thing that we do is only fighting through some silliest think. sometimes, we fought over tiny thing.

last week, my cousin told me that he fought with his school mate age 14. acting like a gangster, he punch that stupid boy too. then, as a big sister, i told my parents about this issue so that they can fix this matter before it became biggest issue involving the teacher and police (might be!). later, after being questioned by dad, he sms me telling me that i'm the worst sister he'd ever had. and said that he would be truly happy if i die. oh, at that moment when i read the sms, i just can't ignored it. i was trembling because i didn't meant to make he hate me more..to hold grunge with me as his sister. i told my mother about the sms that he sent to me, then my mother talk with him to apologized with me. later that night, he came to my room and shook hand wit me as an apologize. but, i knew deep into his heart, he was not actually sincere with this..

he will keep hating me more..

the only thing that i want to do now, is pray that he will change someday...

p/s: a friend of mine advised me to give him holy water (air yassin) to him..

ramadhan kembali lagi

2009-08-21T19:47:00.000-07:00

yea yea.. pose.. yea..yea...

alhamdulillah, kali ni, allah SWT telah memberi kesempatan kepada kita semua untuk menyambut ramadhan sekali lagi..
seharusnya kita bersyukur dengan kesempatan2 yang diberikan ini..

semoga kita berjuang melawan hawa nafsu, sementara syaitan dan konco2nya diikat..dan terus terusan dapat melawan hawa nafsu walaupun setelah habis ramadhan.. insya'allah...

at last........ !

2009-08-15T05:26:00.000-07:00

It has been ages since the last time I wrote in my blog. Guess what? Alhamdulillah, at last...I've been accepted to be one of the researcher..and Insya'allah will continue my study by the end of this year. Really hope so..

I will start as a Research Assistant in September until Disember before the enrollment for Disember intake and here, I proudly announce Prof Madya Dr. Farediah as my new supervisor!! Here also, I would like to dedicate a sincere thankful to En. Ahmad Nazif Aziz (my former supervisor in University Malaysia Terengganu) for the helping hand because he was the one who introduced me to Dr. Farediah as I was deadly want to further my study in Organic Synthesis. I would never forget him...tehehe..

The only thing right now is.. I don't have the guts, to do synthesis... Once, I was totally lost because the hardness to find a new supervisor for Organic Synthesis, that I was nearly took Natural Product for my Master.

But now, I don't have the confident to further study in this field. This is maybe due to the problems in finding journals as well as the methods for this project.

yup, I need a full courage and the ardent in order to do organic synthesis..

yes, insya'allah, I'll be prepared physically and mentally.. =)

give thanks to allah..by zain bikha

2009-07-02T21:52:00.001-07:00

what if your scroll doesn't mean anything??

2009-07-02T06:52:00.000-07:00

huhu...I'm not blogging since about a month?is it?
tehehe...

I'm not writing to comment about my life rite now for not getting any jobs outside there. it's very hard to find a suitable jobs with our qualifications nowadays. furthermore, my plan to further study seem nothing better than last month. nobody answered my mail to be my supervisor for doing research in organic synthesis, or at least organic in natural product...urgh..i wonder why He gave me this type of test..tehehe..am i able to defeat this hardness?

most of my friends had already further study in their own field or work as chemist in private premises. sometimes, i felt regret for taking JPA's scholarship...if not, by this time, I've been working as a chemist too in private sector. huhuuhuuu....no..masya'allah..(i should not said harsh thing like this)..every little things that happen in our daily life has the reason which we said as ada hikmah disebaliknya...

"Allah tidak akan membebani hambanya dengan ujian yang tidak dapat ditanggung oleh hambanyaa itu"

yup..so, insya'allah, i will always be strong in anything that i do..and i believe that one day, i still have a bright future..i just have to try harder!

~i love the spirit of self motivational~

my time had been wasted..

2009-06-01T18:47:00.000-07:00

huhu..
hallu...
today is not the worst day.. slightly worst.

as in plan, i should be in camp by this time. the problem is................
the person in charge is not coming since 830...am i being left behind?huhu...huhu...let it be...what should i do?? i've been ready since 730..syedehnyer...

oh.. rupe2nyer...
got mistake..salah fikir la...
huhu...

the day after tomorrow, i'll go to wet world at BP..wif macik..haha..and her children...

got to go rite now..tata, and thank you..

hard times...

2009-05-30T03:30:00.000-07:00

hye..
everybody got their own problems, right.. and i do have some sort of problemos...
i'm just hoping dat one day, we can eliminate that evil woman in our family...

huhu...

i just want to twist her like lemon juice then, swallow till the last drop..
huhhh....


why did certain people take some one's belonging? don't they have heart?or at least sympathy for doing those harsh thing? i can't stop thinking about it..what if some one take ur stuff without permission??

urghh....
cant stop hating her...but not her children...

the end of undergraduate student's life...

2009-05-27T23:50:00.000-07:00

Yesterday, result final exam kuar...freaking things.. cus i didn't manage to get above 3.75..
my cgpa is only 3.57..but its OK, as long as i was very satisfied for having 118 credits. haha...

I'm just hoping to further study in MSc by research in Organic synthesis or maybe natural product. hurmm....but 'ayah' said, he prefer if i can work by now...its not that i don't want to work...its hard to find a suitable job that suit wif my qualification..my attitude (do i have any attitude problemos??)..haha...but, the very least thing. i tried to apply some works..

tutor, research officer, SPA,...huhu...

i do really want to further study...but don't have any placements..oh, Allah...please help me to solve this matter...

huhu...